Gospels wrap-up - Horrible Saturday

I am interested in people. I want to know what they have been through and how they felt about it and everything.

Scriptures usually aren't heavy on that kind of detail, but there may be hints. There are a few verses that have resonated with me.

John 6:
67 Then said Jesus unto the twelve, Will ye also go away?
68 Then Simon Peter answered him, Lord, to whom shall we go? thou hast the words of eternal life. 

Luke 22:
35 And he said unto them, When I sent you without purse, and scrip, and shoes, lacked ye any thing? And they said, Nothing. 

Things like this give me a sense of how hard it must have been for the apostles to know Jesus was dead.

We've already addressed how they were not expecting the Resurrection. Sometimes they did not seem to understand that he would die either, but there were times when they clearly felt it.

John 11:
16 Then said Thomas, which is called Didymus, unto his fellowdisciples, Let us also go, that we may die with him.

They were willing to die with him. They were willing to fight for him, but he didn't want that. They had seen his power, but he didn't use that. He really was gone, and we know now that it was only going to be for a short time, but they didn't.


Did they feel despair? The Pharisees were worried enough about him rising to request guards, so maybe the apostles had some hope too. Did they struggle with whether they had been mistaken all along? They had not been given the Holy Ghost yet; the gift of the Holy Ghost and knowledge of the Resurrection transformed them (and can do that for us as well). Maybe there was a fear that they would be next, or only a numb grief. I can only imagine that it hurt.

It seemed strange to me that we should call the day of the crucifixion Good Friday, but I suppose we do because we understand that it was an important step on a way to good and needed things. There was terrible darkness, but there was a new light with the dawn.

There will always be hard times. They do end. They can bring great blessings.

Let's keep up hope for that.